Tuesday, February 14, 2012

I don't feel like being a Christian today. Part 1

Well...It is the truth!!

 Today started fairly like any other...well maybe not.

  Last night I dreamt that I created an altar to an unknown god. At this altar, the lady who attended it basically told me that this was a secret altar. It immediately caused anger to stir up in me! And against the grain of what I felt was right in my dream, I violently destroyed the altar! I woke up with the belief that this was a dream from the Father.

So as I prepared for the day I felt like He would reveal a "high place" in me that was secret. And I asked Him to reveal it! (If you ever want to grow, sometimes it takes this, no matter how earth-shattering it may feel like!)


I had a situation with a fellow worker within 5 minutes of entering the job I work at! Normally it would have just been an irritation, but today it felt as if I was a liar for claiming that I was God's. I didn't feel like being who I was! An Overcomer! I wanted to dredge around in rage and spew on everyone! Don't know if I did leak any but for the longest time I hated the restraints of being who I was really carried.  But you can probably glean from my dream explanation that I do often "go against the grain" of my feelings. I asked some brothers to pray for me. If an verse could explain it the best it would be James 5:16. It was so true! Within 30 minutes God gave me peace to believe again. Being a disciple is beyond feeling like you are.

What is your foundation in Christ? A feeling? Someone else's faith? I've been in both of those. Both lead to great disappointment.

You see...like the parable  of the two houses, God sends the Adversary to test our foundation. Hopefully before it is too late, but all the same...

Like both Job and Simon Peter.

With Job, God allowed the Adversary to take everything from him. To give him one thing. Himself.  He was the most blessed man in the land. He, like many of us are very blessed. The adversary basically beat his body physically and mentally, till he finally called out for an explanation of why he was going through this. I've  actually been to this place many times with God. Job's friends told him he deserved what he got. His wife told him to curse God. Basically to throw in the towel. God then showed up and told Job that he needed humility in coming before Him. He openly rebuked Job's friends and told them that their only salvation was to give Job animals to sacrifice and ask for Job to pray for them.   Job prayed...and because of the one possesion he obtained, he was given increase for giving.

See I don't feel like being a Christian today-Part 2for the rest

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